Sunday, May 31, 2009

If ya've had a bad day...

I woke up this morning with some real negative energy and a bad attitude, no one to blame but myself! My husband and I had an argument (one that seems to be reoccurring) and I just couldn't figure out 'how I was ever going to get out of it' (the funk that is)... or at least get thru the day! But after thinking to myself throughout the day and realizing that it could me much worse, I readjusted my thoughts and spent time with my family. Thanks to graduations, close and extended family! Then tonight, after having a (much needed) few minutes, alone with my husband I realized... I just had a bad day! If you're reading this you should consider yourself lucky (not for reading my blog silly, but for being able to read it)! I'm lucky because I have a beautiful baby girl, whom I can't stop staring at, a husband who loves me, and always says so, a roof over my head (if you don't count the chimney that is falling on us :) ), and family & friends that are alive and well! So, in all actuality, I should be grateful...

Moral of my lame post tonight: if you are reading this know; if you think you are having a bad day, think about how much worse it COULD be...at least you are here and able to read this and you still have your loved ones by your side ! Let that cheer your soul and calm your heart! Let the past be history, the present be the best and the future something to look forward to!

On that note I sign off, glass of wine in hand, baby girl fast asleep and husband by my side - not to mention 3 of the best dogs on the planet all snuggled together outside in their kennel!

What more could you ask for?

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Piss & Moan

Okay, now it's my turn to piss and moan! Remember back before Gabby was born (well, I do) and my doctor told me that the pain that I was having in my upper, inner thighs and lower pelvis "would go away after the baby was born"? I am starting to wonder 'how much longer' I have to wait until he proves himself correct? I've been back to the Y now, doing my regular routine (pre-pregnancy, of course) for about 7 or 8 weeks and things just aren't getting any better! There are still things in yoga and pilates that I am finding either very painful or impossible to do ... and, the worst part is, it's as simple as lifting one leg! Ugh! Also, another humiliating task for me is now running the bases in softball, which I just figured out Tues night! It's only my second week back at ball and I thought I was gonna die Tues (yah, I am totally exaggerating), but I couldn't get my grounding at all and it was super painful to run the bases! I even had the ump ask me if I needed a pinch runner (that's gotta make ya feel good, fatty)! And, well... let's face it, for those of you that know me, I really don't need any help with my speed as a base runner! It's hard to run faster then a snail but it is a goal that I had surpassed... up until now! AND, for some reason I ALWAYS end up either as lead off or in front of Curty (ya, that's right Scoots, you made the blog)! It's gonna get better, right? I sure hope so! I can still do the Kickboxing & Cyclebox classes with relatively no issues... until I end up sitting down for 10 minutes, then I look like a 102 year old woman climbing the last flight of stairs before base jumping to her death! I guess for now my Tues night team is going to have to relish in the fact that I now have 3 plows attached to my ass rather then the usual 2! Laugh it up kids, laugh it up!

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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

12 weeks Old

Well, our little butterball is 12 weeks old today... crazy, it's been a while since I have written in my blog and I don't even know where to begin. She's moving on up and eating almost 6 oz. at each feeding, once-in-a-while she'll only gobble down 4 oz., but she is definitely getting bigger, more alert and aware of her surroundings and is sleeping sooo much better. Not that we have really had to complain about her sleeping habits, she's always been really good... Last Friday she slept 10 hours in one stretch and again last night she was down for 10 1/2 hours. It's crazy, and when she wakes up, she's not even starving. The 'light switch' (which is the phrase that I refer to as her instant hunger sign) doesn't flip on, she is all smiles in the morning and calm, which is wonderful...even if she had gotten up once throughout the night to eat she is still all giggles when she wakes up for the day. She is becoming more and more aware of her hands too, constantly sucking on them... I was hoping that she would find her thumb and/or fingers to pacify herself but she seems to be taking to the pacifier more and more so I hope against the hands... they are harder to ween off of as they get older. In fact, this photo was taken just today... she has a tendency to get her whole fist in her mouth (knock it off boys) and gags herself, here is mid gag...



Anyway, she's waking up now... but I promise to my 'stalkers' that I will try to be a little better about my posting in the days to come (hopefully)

A thank you note


Dear Uncle Justin & Aunt Sarah, I wanted to send you a note to say thank you very much for the adorable John Deere stuff. I really love the 'real' button on this onsie that I am wearing... so much so that I tried my hardest to remove it for safe keeping. Mommy told me I should leave the button alone, she said something like 'it's brand new', but I just thought it was pretty. It's still there, I haven't gotten it off... yet! Anyway, you are probably wondering why I have this funny look on my face... well, I guess because I am torn between colors... right when mommy took my picture I said to her "you told me I was supposed to like red"! I have so much 'green' stuff, but every once-in-a-while someone will give me something 'red' so I just don't know what color I should like best. I suppose that since daddy can't make up his mind and he is way older then me, I shouldn't have to make up my mind just yet either. So I think I will like both of them for now. Thanks again for the pretty cool clothes, I almost fit into the pants... can you believe it? I am 12 weeks old today... one of these days I am going to show mommy just how big I am and do that thing (roll over) she keeps trying to get me to do. Love you guys... can't wait to see you next... I can smile now & I can't wait to show you! :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

The hangover

I just saw a commercial for a new movie called 'The Hangover' and the previews have a random baby left in the hotel room of some guys at a bachelor party in Las Vegas. The one guy ends up carrying her/him around in a Baby Bjorn carrier... It looked like the same stunned baby that I carry around in mine! And another scene where they're in the hospital and someone says something 'startling' and of course, I have my eyes on the baby, and I watched this baby almost jump out of the carrier, it was hillarious!

Good blog for me tonight, nye nye. :)

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Monday, May 18, 2009

Too much sleep?

I think my peanut is getting more sleep now (throughout the day) then she has been up to this point! I thought it was supposed to start to be the other way around? :( Don't get me wrong, I am loving that she is sleeping well thru the nights, but I am a little worried about her sleeping too much during the day...especially since she was a wide awake cat napper during the day! Any of you mothers have any advice? Is this normal?
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Wow, what a night!

I am such a bad mommy! :( Gabby was pretty tired lastnight and all she wanted to do was be held, so I held her. Since it was only 8:30 and she had a full tummy, I thought I would give her a bath. That always helps her sleep good and well, after a day in the garden with Grandma & mom, she needed one. So, with only one hand (Gabby in the other), I grabbed her tub full of all her stuff... which is kind of heavy (even heavier with one hand). As I am trying to squeeze thru the door with the tub, I conked Gabby's little head on the corner of the wall... I more or less just kind of pushed her head into the corner. Scream bloody murder she did, and I felt terrible. She's crying, I'm crying.... what a crappy mom I am. :(

After a nice warm bath, a new diaper and a clean pair of jammies she was nestled in my arms with her pacifier. It didn't take long and she was out, in bed by 9:45. I had some work to do so I quick worked on that and headed up to bed to relax for a bit. Of course, I didn't drift off to sleep until about 1am, and awoke at 4am to a silent baby. I zipped in to check on her and she was sound asleep, not to stir until almost 6am. We got up and ate, thinking she was up for the day, or morning at least... not hardly. She was back down in her crib at 6:45am and she is still sleeping. It's 10:40am right now :) I am even missing class today because I wasn't going to wake her just so I could go to the Y. What an angel. I did give her some Mylecon before she went to sleep both times and I wonder if that didn't do the trick. She stirs quite a bit and grunts and groans so I was thinking maybe she is gassy from the formula so I thought I would give it a try. Apparently it worked.... either that, or a I gave her a concussion from smacking her head on the corner of the wall. Now, hopefully she lets me go for a run a little later today!


Sunday, May 17, 2009

Marley, me & real life

So this morning, with my husband out in the field, I decided I would feed Gabby & rent myself a movie. Beings that I have been anticipating Marley & Me for quite sometime, I knew that was the movie for me! (I justified not waiting to watch it with my husband because he rented one the other day without me). Other then the tears because of the wonderfully sad story about the dog, it's also a great story about real life and the hardships we have to go thru in order to make it 'all' work! For me this movie really rang true with us and the new baby & the struggles we have come upon and the many struggles we will have yet to endure! If only we can endure it with as much dignity and admiration as John & Jen did!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Snuggles & Smiles

I love my baby girl & the snuggles we share, especially at the end of the night! Oh, and I look forward to the smiles I get in the morning!

Monday, May 11, 2009

And I said Dave....

If she isn't her father's daughter, there is no such thing!


Gabby, 9 weeks & 5 days

Patent Pending: Homemade Pacifier

I figured out tonight, after much denial, that the only pacifier that Gabby will take is... none! Yah, that's right, I have about 20 and she likes all zero of them. I did figure out that if I take one of her nipples from her bottles and stick my finger in it so she doesn't suck air, that does the trick. Now, tomorrow morning I will be cutting off my index finger, on my left hand, and using that to plug the nipple (pacifier) so that I don't have to hold her 24/7 when she is fussy and all she wants is to suck. I'm hoping one of these days she finds her thumb or finger and that does the trick on it's own, but until then... Why oh why do they have to make things so damn complicated? Why can't they make the nipple on the pacifiers the same as the nipples on the bottles?

If anyone has any suggestions on how to 'fill' the hole on my homemade pacifier so that I don't have to amputate a limb, I would find much appreciation in it.

Patent pending: 'real use pacifier with fake limb'

Friday, May 8, 2009

My name is Gabriella...

My name is Gabriella and this is how I like to sleep at night!

My mommy puts me in these pretty little outfits and I feel so good and comfy that I like to sleep thru the night...sometimes. I especially like this outfit because my little footsies hang out so I stay nice and cool (mommy tells me I take after daddy and am hot, hot, hot!) This is the outfit that I wore the very first time that I slept thru the night for mommy. Thank you mommy! (no, thank you Gabriella!)

Mother's Day Note

Happy Mother's Day to all you mom's-to-be, mothers for days and mothers for decades. Love to you all... after all, if it weren't for you, where would we all be? :)

Love you mom of my own!

Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after you've had a baby ...
somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, 'normal' is history.

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Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by instinct ...
somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.

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Somebody said being a mother is boring ...
somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with a driver's permit.

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Somebody said if you're a 'good' mother, your child will 'turn out good'...
somebody thinks a child comes with directions and a guarantee.

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Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother ...
somebody never helped a fourth grader with his math.

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Somebody said you can't love the second child as much as you love the first ...
somebody doesn't have two children.

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Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother is labor and delivery ...
somebody never watched her 'baby' get on the bus for the first day of kindergarten ... or on a plane headed for military 'boot camp.'

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Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her child gets married...
somebody doesn't know that marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings.

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Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home...
somebody never had grandchildren.

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Somebody said your mother knows you love her, you don't need to tell her ...
somebody isn't a mother.

2 great nights

Gabby has had two really good nights of sleeping, mommy not so much (I'm constantly listening for her to get up)! Wednesday night after her shots she slept from 9:15PM to 5:30AM (8 hours & 15 minutes), then back down after a bottle for another 3 hours until 9AM! I thought this might have a bit to do with her shots that day before so I didn't get too excited, but now last night she was down at 10:00PM up at 5:30AM (7 1/2 hours), and of course after a bottle, she went back down for another 3 hours til 9AM. I actually had to wake her at 9 to get her fed and ready for the day if I was going to make it to class! I was a little worried that she wasn't going to go back down at 6 after a bottle, because after I put her in her crib she wiggled and grunted for quite a while, but since she wasn't crying or fussing she was fine and eventually put herself back to sleep! We are pretty lucky that she's not much of a fusser or a cryer, really the only time she gets fussy is when she is ready to eat, then she let's you know, 'I'm hungry now'! Hopefully, she'll continue the good sleeping routine!

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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Snug as a bug in a rug!

After a tough day, a long bath, supper and snuggles from mommy, Gabby is nestled in snug as a bug in a rug! Hopefully she (we) have a good night! :)


Snug as a bug in a rug! ...prior to me putting in her crib :)

Very wise words...

Some very wise words written to me by someone very special to me... now, if I (we) could just learn to live by them!

"Hey, we all say things we sometimes wish we could take back. Just enjoy the moment. When you realize that one moment after, moment after, moment....makes a whole day and soon those moments are gone. Take time to watch the sunset and listen to the birds early in the morning....take time to watch Gabby as she explores her whole new world. Slow down - tomorrow will hopefully come for all of us and chores will still be there. Soon things will balance out for you both. Take time to be with her and Dave and do NOTHING.... Soon she will be walking and talking and you think you don't have time now.....just wait. Hold her smile in your heart and her "talking" to you now deep in your memory.... Your family is the most precious thing you have in this world. Take the time and energy to build the foundation that will withstand the strongest turmoil. So what if every thing isn't like the stories say...or written like the books proclaim. Fiddlesticks with the experts. Do what your heart says. Take the time now to mend fences and you will be happier for it. Don't let dirty laundry and stacks of dishes in the sink and corn to be planted weigh you down so heavy that you can't see what you truly do want. GROW TOGETHER!!"

2 month well baby

Well, after a night of little rest for myself, grandma Rita and I headed off to Rochester for Gabby's 2 month well baby checkup! I was super excited and anxious for this day, but also a bit frightened! I was anxious to have the doctor 'confirm' that our efforts as new parents are paying off, excited to find out what she weighs, and frightened to hear the dreaded screams that I have heard so much about! Good news is: Gabby is still alive and apparently we are doing something right cause the little tubber weighed in at 11lbs. (I guess she likes those even numbers), gaining 5lbs. since her birthday and 4 1/4" putting her at 22"! She's not blowing the dolphins out of the water with her sitting right smack in the middle of the charts at 55th percentile, but we are more then happy to take that! With the questions I had all answered and Gabby's joints all tugged in 40 different directions, onto the fun stuff! :( In walks the nurse with 3 syringes (with really long needles) and one squeezie thing filled with some kind of liquid. Sure they do the easy stuff first (and now I know why), she gobbled down the squeezie thing with ease! Then I had to put her on the table, hold her arms down while the nurse pins her legs over the end of the table with her thighs! Stab 1, oh my god poor Gabby's face, she turned bright red and I swear she stopped breathing... then a horrible scream, stab 2, more horrid cries! Honestly, I don't remember seeing the third, I just wanted to pick her up and hold her! Finally. after the longest 6 seconds of my life, we were done and Gabby was back in my arms with one single, long tear running down her right cheek! Thank goodness grandma was there to take her out in the waiting room to calm her down so I could make her next appointment, asleep in her arms she falls! In reality, the shots weren't that bad, it's just that nothing breaks your heart more then seeing your child cry like that! But she made out petty good in the end, we stopped at Baby's R Us on the way home and I bought her a pair of jean shorts for summer! :) How could I resist?

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Saturday, May 2, 2009

Smiles!

We are out with friends and the Gabster is at grandma & grandpas for the night! After having many friends ask us about Gabby & discovering that hearts are breaking over 'empty nest syndrome', I find myself seeing her precious smiles & giggles and thinking about how thankful I am knowing that she is all ours and realizing how fast this time will go! :( Cheers to those who have overcome the challenges that raising children brings and hugs to our friends who are having a hard time with their babies growing up and starting their new journeys!

Two days in a row, holy cow!

What is this, two days in a row I get to write in my blog? Craziness!

I had the opportunity to go out with my good friend, Rachael lastnight to a purse party and then out for a couple drinks. It was rather nice to be able to go somewhere alone, one without the Gabster and two, without my husband. I hadn't realized either that since Dave and I have been together how much I do NOT go out without him. Don't get me wrong, I love him to death, but I think we can all agree... sometimes we just need to go out alone, with the girls and I didn't realize how much I never do that. It's funny too, but the guys, they always go out... they even have a name for it... 'guys night'! I think there have been many a nights that I 'try' to go out without him, but it always work into the plans that he comes with so I never really get my 'girls night'. Needless to say, lastnight Rachael and I were pretty adiment that we go alone... without them and without the girls. So of course, the boys, had to get together with the girls. They decided to take them out to supper... ALONE! I happen to be upstairs getting ready when Rachael's husband walked in the door and I hear him ask Dave, 'are you ready for this?' I had to laugh... it's not like he was going to go give birth or something, they were going to supper. We've been to supper a few times with her and honestly, she has been great. But he was really nervous, one he was there with out 'mom' and was afraid she was going to have a fit and two, he was there without 'mom' and afraid she was going to have a fit. I told him, if she stars fussing, give her a bottle... pretty sure that's all she will need. (It's not like she is 3 and would be running around the restaurant and throw a tantrum if you were to tell her to sit down.) boys! :) But, anyway, the boys did great and they all survived and when Rachael and I got home at 11:30, the kids were sound asleep with both boys relaxed, beer in hand and baseball game on. I think we should go out more often, me, alone, and daddy with Gabby. I put her down in her crib lastnight when I got home, she woke up at 4:15 to eat and back down at 5... the best part... she is still sleeping and it's 9am. :) Daddy must have really wore her out! She was starting to stir and grunt around 6:30, so I am thinking she just had a bubble that needed to work it's way out because she has her blanket all kicked off and is sound asleep. :) Man is that the munchkin a hot blooded creature, she is always on fire, but... I guess it's better then always being cold like me! :)

Friday, May 1, 2009

Update... finally!

Wow, what a crazy couple weeks it has been. Finally, Gabby is resting (eyes wide shut) in her bouncy chair, I have done a bit of laundry, caught up on a few emails, got myself ready to head to class and have a minute (or two) to write in my blog. Ah, the joys of typing with two hands! :)

I can't believe that 8 weeks have passed since our little peanut made her appearance into this world. I can't believe that the first few weeks are over (I honestly can't really remember the first few weeks), we are establishing a routine, I know what her cries mean... even when she fakes them, and I even know her 'poop grunt'. The 'poop grunt' I must say, is the cutest damn thing on the planet. Her little face gets bright red and she has a really distinct, drawn out grunt everytime she fills her diaper... I think I smile (or laugh uncontrollably) every time she does it. She is starting to smile, (which just melts my heart) - I have noticed a dimple on her left cheek and I can't wait to see how prominent it will be. She looks exactly like Dave's baby picture posted on my blog... but with my lips. She is growing out of some of her outfits... finally... I thought she would never grow into them. She still cat naps during the day, but I am just fine with that, then it means she will sleep good at night. She is pretty consistent at getting up around 3 - 3:30 am... and it seems like it doesn't matter if she goes to bed a 9pm or 11pm. I am just fine with her staying up until 11 or midnight, there is no way on this green earth that I can make myself go to sleep before 10pm, so the later she stays up the better... then she usually makes sure to hit the 3:30 mark. She'll take her bottle and nye nye she goes again... usually until around 6:30 sometimes she sleeps in until 8 (which mommy really likes), then bright eyes and raring to go. She'll usually sit in her bouncy chair after she eats to let me get a few things done, like wash out bottle from the night before and get her diaper bag ready for the day either at the Y Daycare or at Gramma Tangrens. Once in a while (like right now), she will fall asleep. I thank Baby Einstein's Day/Night CD for that... she loves it (so does mommy).

Next Wednesday she goes in for her 2 month check up AND shots :( Not looking forward to that, but I suppose it has to be done. I am anxious to see how much she has gained, I am thinking she is close to 10lbs now, I don't think she is quite 10, but getting there. My mom and I stretched her out and measured her the other day, she has gained around 3" in length, she's definately growing. :) And most definately growing into her name, developing her own personality too. She is getting so fun to watch and talk with, I am watching her right now as I am typing... she gets these little smirks on her face and little giggles sneak out, it's the cutest thing ever!

Uh oh... eyes wide open now... gotta go change the laundry and get her packed up so mommy can go try to work off this baby fat!